I Am Still Here

Dear Universe,

Its me again. I am still here, older by one year, one mighty head wiser.
Please be kind to me for I have learnt my lesson.

I now know that it is useless to wander into research without a solid goal in mind. Sometimes, even with the goal, you need a sense of direction. And I have been so lost.

I have hammered on to the walls of my brain not to put off till the-day-after-tomorrow, something that I should have done yesterday, just because there is still a lot of time. Time, I see, has a tricky way of sneaking up on me.

I solemnly swear never to call myself a 'researcher' in vain, until and unless I learn to be one with dignity and common sense. A lot of the latter, dash of the former.

I promise I will never download every other paper that I find interesting unless I know I will have time to read them all. Or, hang onto that one sentence in that one paper that I read a week ago that I would like to use now. Now being when the deadline is just sitting on my head. 

I know I have drawn too much from my stock of white lies for this semester, and I swear, cross my heart, that I will strive to be more disciplined and avoid putting myself into tricky spots. I will find me some balance.

Lesson learnt. Do not let my limbs find pleasure kicking my backside now, for I know they want to. 

Sigh!

Regretfully yours,

This not-so-little-girl-with-oh-so-sad-a-face.

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I am not yet done with my exams. This has been one long grueling ordeal this time. Partly due to my negligence and partly 'cos I can be plain stupid sometimes. I will be back. Soon. I promise. Thanks for sticking by me.